And that you hold the same one hawk each day I pass through my field
up. And that it
may choose its
spot so
freely, from which to scan, and, without more than the wintry beguiling
wingstrokes seeding
the fields of air,
swoop. It feeds. There is no wasteland where the dead oak
lives – my
darling – up-
start vines on its trunk, swirling in ebblight, a desert of gone-silent
cells – where another force is
gleaming – tardy –
waning – summer or winter no longer
truths, no prime, no
year, no day where sun
exists –
just a still-being-here in this small apparently silent multitudinous world of
infinite yearning and
killing and
sprouting – even now at the very start of the season – lengthening, in-
visible in its
cracking open of
pod – and push – like the first time we saw each other you and I –
impatient immediately …
Blackness is the telephone wire – blackness the blissless instant-
communication,
the twittering poverty killing behind and beneath and deep at the core of
each screen, end-
less, someone breaking someone’s
fingers – just now – hear their laughter – everyone in their prison – there in their human
heart which
they cannot
for all the parting of flesh with
cement-sluiced rubber
hose – and even the axe to the heart – reach – the fantasy of independence – es-
cape. It wants them. It wants them to
fly inside it. Fly it screams
taser in
hand. Prison is never
going to be
over. Day as it breaks is the principal god, but with the hood on they cannot
know this. Till it is finally sliced open the
beating heart. Loved
ones shall pay
ransom
for the body of
their child. To this, friend, the hero is the dead tree. Here in my field, mine.
I have forced it. I have paid for it. My money like a wind flowing over it.
Have signed the paperwork and seen my name there. And a cloud
arrives from the East
into it. And the prison
grows too large to see.
And it does not sing, ever,
my silent hawk, always there when I arrive, before it startles, on its chosen
branch. And I think of
the dead-through trunk, the leafless limbs, the loosening of the
deep-drying roots in the
living soil. And I slow myself to extend love to them. To their as-
yet-still-sturdy
rotting, and how they hold
up this grey-blue
poverty of once-sapflowing
limbs, their once everywhere-turning
branchings,
for my small hungry creature to glide from in his silence
over the never-for-an-instant-not-working
rows of new
wheat. It is
good says my human soul to the crop. I will not listen for
song anymore. I will
listen for how dark comes-on to loosen the cringing wavering
mice from their dens and
how they creep up to the surfaces and out onto the surfaces and
how the surfaces
yield their small grey velvet barely visible in the last glow
to that part of the world
the dead tree sends forth. I have lived I
say to the evening.
I have plenty of anger and am good and dry with late-breaking news. I
am living.
And the iron door of the night creeps and clicks. And the
madness of the day
hangs around restless at the edges of the last visible leaves
with a reddish glow
and moves them with tiny
erratic swiftnesses and
the holy place shuts, baggy with evening, and here it is
finally night
bursting open
with hunt.
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