from the cadaver beginning to show through the skin of the day. The future without
days. Without days of it?
in it? I try to – just for a second – feel
that shape. What weeds-up out of nowhere as you look away for
good. So that you have to imagine
whatever’s growing there growing forever. As you shall not be back to look
again. The last glance like a footprint before the
thing it was
takes flight. Disturbing nothing, though,
as it is
nothing. Air moving aside air. That breeze. How is this possible, and yet it
must be. Otherwise it cannot be said that this
existed. Or that we did, today. Always breathing in this pre-life, exhaling this post.
Something goes away and something comes
back. But through you. Leaving no trail but self. As trails go not much of
one. But patiently
you travel it. Your self. You hardly disturb anything actually, isn’t it strange. For all
the fuss of being how little
you disturb. Also like
a seam, this trail. Something is being
repaired. No? Yes. Push Save. Write your name again to register. It is some
bride, this flesh barely hanging
on, of minutes, of minutiae, of whatever it is
raising now
up through day’s skin as a glance, a toss of hand, a head in con-
versation – as, growing in-
creasingly unburied now, one can begin to see
the speechless toil, there under day’s department, under the texture of
keeping-on-
doing-it, whatever it is that has variation in it, that swallows clip, that the
trellis of minutes holds letting clouds slip
through if you
look up – it seems we are
fresh out of ideas – the pre-war life disappeared, just like that, don’t look back you’ll
get stiff-necked – there is exhaust in the air in its
place – the wilderness (try to think of it) does nothing but point to here, how we
got here, says it can’t stay
a minute longer
but that we
will have to – & day
something I am feeling lean on my shoulders now, & how
free it is, this day, how it seems to bend its
long neck
over me and try to peer at me, right here, right into my face – how it is so worried in
its hollowing-out over me – night in it starting to
trickle down, & the sensation of punishment, though still far away, horns in the
distance, & how this was a schooling, & plain
truths which shine out like night-bugs in evening, no one can catch them as
they blink
and waft, & that summer will be here
soon, which is normal, which we notice is normal, & will our fear matter to
anything is a thing we
wonder, & before you know it
we are ready to begin thinking about something else,
while behind us it is approaching at
last the day of
days, where all you have named is finally shunted aside, the whole material man-
ifestation of so-called definitions, imagine
that, the path of least resistance wherein I grab onto the immaterial and christen it
thus and thus &
something over our shoulders says it is good, yes, go on, go on, and we did.
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