Susan FrombergSchaeffer, 5 April 1990
“... I thought all I felt was annoyance, not even anger, So many plans to change, we were in the wrong country, On the other side of an ocean, words get changed Coming through water, I thought, don’t tell me this, I don’t want to hear it, I thought it’s wrong To tell me my father died while I’m standing Here naked and wet, wrapped in a towel, my hair wet, You don’t talk to a daughter about her father While she’s naked and wet, it isn’t proper, Don’t you have any sense, I remember giving my mother Black net stockings, she was always So proud of her legs, even after the stove burned them, I have her legs, and he said, Next you’ll be standing On street corners holding a red bag, I always wondered Why a red bag, she gave them back to me and I wore them Everywhere, she never wore them, and then everyone around me Was crying, and it was like being in a wood where the trees, Swayed by wind, wept and wept, while I stood like a stick, Motionless, dry, and it took me some time to understand I was the wind and the branches in this wood Would be lashing forever, I could walk into this wood whenever I pleased, but the weather would never change here, And today I remember everything, the colour of the towel, Beige, the colour of the dust of the road in the summer In front of our house, the colour of the dust that settles All winter as the wood stove burns, it burns up a whole wood, But it won’t burn up this one, you might as well Have been the hunter who comes with a club And bludgeons baby seals, their bodies, Were all around me as you talked, it’s not worth being The messenger, is it, someone had to do it, and all I thought was, There are six people coming to dinner and my hair is still Wet, why make up a story like this, my father fell From a ski lift ...”