Malaka Shwaikh is an associate lecturer in peace and conflict studies at the University of St Andrews.
I am often asked questions that expect me to show my strength, or ‘resilience’: ‘How are you still managing?’ ‘How are you still smiling despite everything?’ But I am doing neither. I am struggling to cope with this unbearable violence. And I should not be expected to cope with it.
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